Fellowship and worship

I just finished rereading my blog from May and am amazed that I typed that whole blog without taking a breath. Well, one thing  that is good about a blog is that you don't have to keep reading it if you are bored!
I only know that worship is important to me and will be what I blog about. Worship is the part of my life that is my "living sacrifice" to Yahweh, which means that I choose to lay myself on the altar! (It also might mean I talk about it a lot! : )
Which brings me to this blog. We've been having discussions lately in our small fellowship that is what's called in trendy circles (tongue in cheek) a "messianic" fellowship. Our discussion is about trying to start and end at regular times and because we are frequently mostly women (we are praying for the men to arise!), women love to talk and need to be herded over to the place where we are focusing on SOMETHING.
So my younger friend who has experience in this area, tells me that she thinks she can help in this area to bring focus and clarity to these gatherings.
We know we all like a lot of things. We like food. We like worship. We like studying the Torah from a Hebraic perspective. We like praying for one another. We like giving. So much here. So little time.
Eventually, when  SOME OF US THAT WORK ON SATURDAYS get a regular weekly job, we will meet on Saturdays and we can spread out Shabbat from Friday night to Saturday night. So we can have extended worship and extended Bible study and extended ministry and outreaches.
But for now, we are trying to squeeze a size 10 woman into a size five dress. It ain't lookin' very good...unless she goes on a diet.
She is looking at her plate and saying, "What do I have to let go of? Does it have to be less worship songs?" Her heart is breaking. She can't let ANY of that go. It's like the hidden chocolate some of you keep in the cupboard that you eat when the kids aren't around.
Is it the Torah study? Absolutely not!. That's like the broccoli and tomatoes and steak. Vitamins and protein. We need the truth even for our worship to have a good foundation.
How about the food? Well, some people who might eventually come, might come straight from work and be hungry. That's a ministry.
  I used to do that myself! I would drive an hour and twenty minutes to take part in a messianic fellowship. I was so grateful to find food downstairs after the service! Ministry is like potatoes! It fills you up! No empty spaces!
So what do we do dear friends? We get a bossy girl like me to tell everyone to stop the yakking and we'll get done on time! (we got done at 10  p.m. which was out goal (except everyone stayed and talked til 10:45.) Now we know what's slowing us down! : )